Saturday morning introspection
I saw this quote yesterday:
If your girlfriend doesn’t make you feel good about yourself and bring joy to your life, fire her. That’s what girlfriends are for.
That really resonates with me. Past relationships have always started off so well… then things fall apart. Since I generally care about them at that point, it becomes very difficult for me to end things. Starting now, I am taking an entirely new approach to the relationships within my life. If people have nothing to offer, I am not interested. This is especially true with the emotional vampires that seem to always find me.
At one point last month, I was talking to four women at the same time… They all had multiple red flags, yet I continued talking to them and went out on a few dates with a couple of them. Probably relates back to last summer… I was in the perfect frame of mind. Then love came along like a tsunami, rocked my foundations, then kicked me while I was down. Why I go back to being a lovesick fool is beyond even me. I just need to accept the fact that I am an idiot that is easily manipulated by women that I am not even attracted to.
I do way too much for other people and rarely get anything in return. I need to be more selfish and less self-destructive. If my needs are not being met yet I am investing resources, that relationship is terminated. At least alcohol still treats me right.
This may be my last post for awhile. I am canceling my cable and internet services in an effort to eliminate some of the escapes from reality currently present in my life.